HarlemWriter

When someone tells you, they still care about you, you want to believe them right? When they tell you, they feel something special with you, and do things to make you feel like everything they said to you is true, you want to believe you’ve found the one. The one worth all the hell you’ve been put through. Then you look and they’ve done to you exactly what the one before them did, and the one before that. So, you get tired of being vulnerable and gving your heart over. Then someone comes along with no hidden agenda, but it’s so hard for you to be with them because of what the others did. Now is that fair to them? No. But was it fair when it happened to you? No. Which just brings us back to the saying that nothing in life is fair. It’s a never ending cycle. Someone hurt someone who hurts you who hurts someone else and on and on and on. All because of lies and hidden agendas. Now as far as how a guy feels when this is done to them, I wouldn’t know but I know with girls, when we’ve been hurt before but decide to try one last time to on this guy we like, it practically kills us when they let us down. When you give love another chance, and it seems like you were right to do so, you fall and fall hard. So when the end of the fall comes, and that person you gave a chance to just lets you fall it’s the hardest thing to handle. Then, the wall is put up and the next guy that comes along is going to have the hardest time breaking it down. All because, th last one couldn’t keep up the pretenses. Be honest from day one, and don’t become just another guy that hurt her, or another girl that hurt him…

Time to put the crap behind us. Another chance at another year. Another chance to get it right. Do something with your life. Enjoy it, make it big! Each year isn’t promised but we’ve been given another one! Let’s not waste this chance to make up for anything that went wrong in 2011. I for one am so grateful for this new beggining. I feel fresh and new and ready to become better than I ever was. I spent the last two weeks off finding the me that I lost to all the sadness and anger I felt last year. Well, it’s officially January 1, 2012, and that girl is found. Looking back on last year’s resolutions, I’m proud to say I achieved them! Now to start a whole new list and make it happen for 2012. I can already feel it. This is my year. This is the year it’s all about to look up for me. This is my time and I can’t wait to get it started. So my resolutions:

1) Make it to State in swimming

2) Make Varsity Volleyball

3) Get straight A’s

4) Not lose myself again

5) Stay in shape

6) Get introduced to the entertainment industry

7) Build a better work ethic

8) Become less addcited to facebook

9) Strengthen my voice in singing

10) Have my July 4th dream come true

Good Luck everyone! Make it your year! :D